I gave my all

 Greetings from Iowa,

As the death of my husband tears our family apart, the grief I feel from his loss is intensified even more.  He never would've wanted this.

Here is a poem for this occasion - 

I Gave My All

I gave my all from the day we met,

we had this connection & we used it quite often,

It became you , me & God against the world. 

I gave my all when you went to Cali,

I made sure your home & dog were taken care of, 

I worked hard to be the woman you needed.

I gave my all at our wedding, 

To be the bride you desired & proud of,

We began our simple lives that beautiful day.

I gave my all when you were gone trucking,

To take care of us & support us,

I worried for you safety daily.

I gave my all during the moves, 

I didn't understand why we moved to where we did,

But I did my best to make it a home.

I gave my all when you decided to take a break from our marriage,

I kept the home & prayed to God,

You came home to a wife who still loved you.

I gave my all when the awful diagnosis came,

We decided together on a course of treatment, 

Natural way yes, Chemo no. 

I gave my all during your treatment,

During the sleepless nights & sleep walking,

And patience when you got upset with yourself.

I gave my all when we were told your journey was done,

I stayed by your side & cried daily for you.

How will I live without you?

I gave my all as you started your final days,

the sponge baths, making arrangements, 

Tears are a form of I love you.

I gave my all when I saw you slipping away, 

No, this can't be true.  

God I beg you, take me, not him!

I gave my all as I saw you laying there. 

Straightening your flower, fixing your hair. 

You are ready for a wedding in the kingdom.

I gave my all as my heart breaks daily,

I loved you then, I love you still, 

Always & forever.

I gave my all to you. 

Until next time,

Lori